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New home, no sleep

So yes guys, I am still alive and I am aware that I TOTALLY failed at my own July blog challenge. I thought it was going to be a cool idea until I very quickly burnt myself out. But hey, it was fun while it lasted!

Remember when we were younger and our summers consisted of sleeping in, swimming all day, and hanging out with friends all night? Well, it’s not like that anymore. These last few weeks have been anything but fun and relaxing. For the last few weeks I have been trying to settle into my new home. The whole actual moving process lasted everyday for about a week and then the actual unpacking and settling in… well that’s still going on. The amount of sleep I have lost these last week weeks makes me never want to get out of bed again.

On top of the stress from moving, my boyfriend was also in the ER every week for 3 weeks straight. (He’s okay btw). I also want to note that moving is NOT good on a relationship! The amount of times I have wanted to kill this boy the last few weeks is mind blowing 😂

So, with all that being said I am not sure when I will be back on schedule with my blogs, but hopefully it will be soon!

If anyone right now is sitting around a campfire roating smores, please have like 5 for me! The craving is real.

 

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July 31 Day Challenge

3 lessons learned from working a 9 to 5

Day 3 of the 31 day challenge

As a child all I could dream about was being an “adult”. I didn’t really know what that meant, I just couldn’t wait to have my own home, my own stuff, and my own family. My obsession as a kid (and even a little bit now) was/is playing the Sim games on my computer. I got to make my own house and decorate it and live life how I wanted to. Well, the sims did not prepare me for what adult life is alctually like (are we surprised). There is no rosebud or motherload cheats in real life (cheat code for a lot of money), nor can you fastforward in real life to make work go by faster.

When I graduated from college I could not wait to jump into the “real world” and get a full time 9-5 job. I could not wait for all the good things that come along with having a “real” job, such as having money to spend shopping, but I was not prepared for how much my life was going to change.

  1. When you have a 9-5 job, you miss out on EVERYTHING, especially in the Summer! I get text messages from friends in the middle of the day on a Monday asking what I’m doing. Uh…working, as usual. Unlike some of my friends I cannot go catch an afternoon movie, spend my mornings tanning, or go shopping and out for lunch. Why? Because I’m at work when all the fun stuff is going on and by the time I get out of work I’m too tired, which brings me to my second point…
  2. You no longer have a life. Maybe that’s just me, but after being up early and working all day, by the time I get home I want to do nothing! When people ask me if I want to go out to the bar or catch a 10pm movie, I just laugh. Not only do I laugh because I’m in bed by 10pm, but because I yet again have work the very next day too, so my free time after work is limited. To make matters worse, when you have your own place you really don’t have time to yourself after work. My daily schedule is work until 5, home by 5:30, make dinner and eat by 7, maybe sit down and relax until about 9, make my lunch for the next day, shower, and in bed by 10pm. What an exciting day.
  3. $$$$ Who doesn’t LOVE having money to spend? With working a full time job that means you get a decent amount of money to spend (or save if you are smart, unlike me).  BUT, actually having money can get you in trouble. You think that because you have money that you can buy all of these things or sign up for credit cards because you will have the money to pay them off. WRONG. If you can control your spending then this does not imply to you, but clearly I’m somewhat of a shopaholic. Now, I make enough to pay the bills, but never end up having any money left over. That money is already spent a week before I get that pay. A girl has got to shop, but this girl has got to learn to budget!

How has YOUR life changed since working a full time job? Are you able to balance “work life” and “real life”?

July 31 Day Challenge

To stay or to go?

Day 2 of my 31 day July Challenge!

COLLEGE. The best 4 years of your life. At least that is what I was told college was suppose to be before I went away.

Ever since I was a young teenager I COULD NOT WAIT to move out of my parents house and FINALLY have a little bit of freedom and room to breath. I looked at colleges hours away and some close to home, but not too close.

Watching all these TV shows and movies I had a very unrealistic idea of what college was suppose to be like. I was NOT prepared for what college was actually like!

I only applied to 3 schools, Bloomsburg, Clarion, and Kutztown. I did a tour of all 3 and loved each one. Bloomsburg was #1 on my list since my brother had just graduated from there and he had the time of his life, because of him I was also a little more familiar with the school. Then, there was Clarion which I also loved, but it was in the middle of nowhere and too many hours away for me. Then, there was Kutztown which was about 2 hours away, was close to one of my good friend who was going to Penn State Berks, and has the cutest town ever. See where I am going with this yet?

For some reason it look Bloomsburg forever to get back to me with an answer and by the time I had received my acceptance letter I had already committed to Kutztown.

I wanted so badly to love Kutztown and in a way I did, but it was just the right place at the wrong time.

That first day that my parents moved me in I was already freaking out. I knew I should have been enjoying every second of my newfound freedom and the new chapter in my life, but I was in a panic. I threw myself into something I was NOT ready for. Everyone I met there was so nice and the town was so beautiful and the campus made me feel like a real college student, but there was just something missing. It wasn’t home.

I HATED not having my own space and privacy. When you grow up living in a nice home with your own big bedroom and nice clean bathroom, switching to a tiny ass dorm room and a shared bathroom is a nightmare. I also did not have any service in my room, meaning I could not text, talk on the phone, or Skype with my boyfriend. In order to make a phone call I had to sit outside the building to talk. After a few weeks of that my parents gave me their old landline phone to use. I could not call out on it though, so I had to give my boyfriend and parents a specific time every night to call me. I felt like I was living in a whole new world.

Within that first week of classes I was already begging my parents to let me come home and go to school closer to home. They would not budge though. For whatever reason they wanted me to stick it out and give it a chance, which I tried. I tried to hang out with people on campus, I didn’t have a car with me for the first 2 months so a friend at a college nearby would come pick me up and I would spend some days with her. This was a best friend who I have been close with since 3rd grade. I thought being with someone familiar would make things better, but it wasn’t enough.

I cannot tell you how many tears were shed that first semester. I cried just about everyday, sometimes a few times a day for almost 3 months straight. I was going through some major depression to the point where I just always wanted to be alone. I stopped hanging out with my roommate and new friends, stoped going to half of my classes, stoped eating in public, I was just alone. I don’t know how many times I would fake sleep when my roommate would come in because I just did not want to be bothered by anyone. The only time I would leave my dorm was for some of my classes that I could not miss, to grab food to bring back, to talk outside on my phone, or to go behind the water tower and cry.

Oh, that water tower. I would sit there in the grass alone and call everyone and cry for them to pick me up. Most the time it was my boyfriend and my parents that I would call, one time it was even my brother who I am not even that close with. My boyfriend would always tell me that I was fine and that I could do it, but I knew I couldn’t.

Ever since that first week of school my dad came down to pick me up every Friday when he got out of work and I would get to enjoy the weekend at home. My dad hated doing it, but it was the only way I could get through the week. It was hard to enjoy that limited time at home though, since I knew it wasn’t going to be long until I had to go back up to school again. Every Sunday afternoon my dad would bring me back to school and I would cry the whole 2 hours back and then once he left I would go to the water tower and cry for a little bit longer.

I would take sleeping pills In the middle of the day hoping that I could pass the time by sleeping a little bit, but it never worked.

It wasn’t long before it become obvious that I was not going to last at that school. My parents told me to stick it out for the semester and then I would come home. I counted down the days that I would be able to pack my stuff up and be home for good. I could not wait.

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Toward the middle of the semester my father got tired of bringing me back and forth every weekend, so they finally let me bring my car up there, which helped a little bit. At this point through the depression was getting worse and I was only staying at the dorm a few times a week. I had made arrangements with a few of my teachers where they would send me the notes from class so that I would not physically have to be there. I was half living back at home and half up at school. I don’t remember exactly how I did it, but I think I went up to school Tuesdays and stayed until Friday afternoon and then I would come home for a few days. Thats what I ended up doing for the rest of my time up there.

I cannot explain the weight lifted off my shoulder when I was getting in my car to leave that place for good. I felt like I could finally breath for the first time in 3 months.

For someone who so badly wanted to leave home I still don’t understand what went wrong. Looking back, I wish I loved it. At the time I was so depressed and didn’t want to be there, but now I can’t help but to think about how nice of a school that was and how it would have fit me so well. I just wasn’t ready though. I wasn’t ready to have to make all new friends all alone, I wasn’t ready to share a tiny space with some random girl, I wasn’t ready to just be in a unfamiliar place all by myself. Another big factor was that I was in my first real relationship from back home. He was a senior in high school when I went away and he didn’t have his own car to come down and see me or anything. The long distance thing just added to everything and its not even like we were that far from each other. I saw him every weekend, but when you go from seeing someone every single day to only a few hours Friday night and Saturday, its tough. That was just the cherry on top.

When I came home I was all over the place. I never took time off so, once I finished my first semester I came home and spent my second semester at a local community college. To me, after being somewhere where I did not really know anyone and then going to a community college, I actually loved it. I saw familiar faces everywhere I turned, that was everything. My second year of school I was going to a local Penn State branch campus. Still living at home, but I was on campus most of the day for school and work study. Once again, I was surrounded by people I knew from high school, but by the end of that year I was kind of over it. By that time I think I was about 20 years old and I felt ready to leave again. This time, my boyfriend (still the same boyfriend) was in college. He did a year at the same local community college that I was at my second semester.

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I had found a school in Williamsport (Pennsylvania College of Technology), which was almost 2 hours from home. It had both my major and my boyfriends major, which it was very hard to find a school that had both since I was a business major and he was an automotive major. Penn Tech had both though, so I told him if he gets in then we will both go up there for school. I remember I was working at a restaurant when he called me and told me he got in. I kind of went into a mini panic. All I wanted to go was go away to school again, this time with him, but I didn’t put too much thought into it. It was kind of a lets just see where it goes situation.

To make a long story a little shorter, we got a place in Williamsport and after my last two years of my 4 year college journey, that is where I graduated from. I finally was able to go away to college, this time with my boyfriend, and I got to experience the college life. I got to enjoy being a broke ass college kid, going to boring pointless parties, working as a dishwasher making close to nothing, and just having that freedom that I always wanted.

So, my advise to anyone who is in the process of picking a college, don’t bite off more then you can chew like I did. I know as a 17-18 year old you cannot wait to move away from home, but make sure you are ready for that. Being on your own knowing no-one and not being familiar with the area is tough. Some people can handle it and some need to hold off for a little bit. College can be a good time and a great experience if your ready for it. Although I went through hell and major depression that first semester being away, I don’t regret it. It was hard, but in a way I am glad I experienced it and I learned a lot about myself.

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Canada Day!!

HAPPY CANADA DAY!!!

Let me start off by saying that I am not Canadian, but most days I wish I were!

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To me Canada is like a second home. Every summer since I was born my family would go up to these little old rustic cottages in Kingston, Ontario. We went the same time in July every single summer so everyone there become like family to us.

I’m not an outdoors kind of girl, but I would make an exception just for Canada! The air is just so fresh and gives you such a relaxed feeling. Maybe it’s just me, but I also think that everything taste better in Canada. Mind you, we would bring food from home to cook while we were up there, but it never tasted the same when we ate it at home!

I would spend a week enjoying catching frogs, fishing (aka falling asleep on the boat), boogie boarding, having water balloon fights, fish fries, playing volleyball, reading under a nice tree, and going into the town of West Point.

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At night everyone would get together with their wine, pepperoni, cheese, and crackers and play cards and listen to the sounds of the frogs and the lake hitting off the docks.

Canada felt like a whole different world to me. I never had any bad memories there and looking back I wish I got a chance to enjoy it a little more. My family is big into fishing so once the fishing got bad where we would go and my grandparents got too old to go, we stopped going. There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t miss it to the point where I often think about visiting or one day trying to move there. A big part of my heart will always be left in Canada.

So, if you have never been to any part of Canada, I would recommend it! No matter what part of Canada you visit, I’m sure it will be a trip that you never forget!

 

If you are interested in checking out the cabins that I called home, do so now! Make Irwin’s Cabins your second home just like I did!

July 31 Day Challenge

July 31 Day Challenge!

 

DAY 1

EXCITING news everyone! If your one of those people who never knows what day it is then hold on tight! Today is the first day of July! When I think of July I think of cookouts, smores, camping, and all things summer!

Personally, July is going to be an exciting month for me (hopefully). I PLAN on getting my butt back to the gym, I am moving into a nicer place mid July, and I am doing this July 31 day challenge!

Being new to blogging I kind of just jumped right into everything. I was so pumped to be writing again that I threw all my ideas into blog posts within the first 2 days. After that I was stuck for a little while wondering what I do next. Well, I decided that for the month of July I am going to challenge myself by doing a blog every single day for the next 31 days, starting 5 minutes ago!

So stick around, it’s going to be an exciting month! Let me know if you guys are challenging yourself this month!

& stick around for tomorrow’s blog where I share my experience with going away to college for the 1st time! Spoiler alert, it wasn’t a good one for me!

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Chasing the social media “life”

Facebook, Snapchat, Instagram, Twitter. 4 words that have become universal. Let’s be real here, does anyone even remember what life was like without social media?

I still like to consider myself to be fairly young. I’m 24 and have been around before social media. Crazy to see how the world has changed in less then 20 years.

I remember being a young girl and the only thing I used a computer for was to play my sim games. Man, how the times have changed. Now, I sit on social media all day and THEN I play my Sims. Don’t even get me started on how much The Sims have developed!

Anyways, I can look back on a time when I was in second grade and was helping my Aunt make an online dating profile. I didn’t know much about social media at the time, but somehow I knew more then anyone else in my family. I don’t even remember what dating website it was, but it certainly wasn’t like it is now. Now, there are too many to even name and it has become more socially accepted to hang out on these sites.

Then, we had MySpace. I have to admit I LOVED Myspace. I was actullay really bummed out when Facebook became a thing. I didn’t feel like social media was much of a competition back when we had MySpace.

MySpace was all about you. Your top friends and your long Bios where you went on and on about yourself and your best friends. Then, to top it off you were able to let your personality really shine through with being able to customize your background and the music you wanted to play. I was always so involved with my MySpace. I spent way too much time finding the perfect “layout” and picking my top songs. You were really able to get to know someone just by their MySpace.

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Now, with all the new social media sites everything feels like a competition. It’s not about you anymore, it’s about being better then everyone else and having nicer stuff then anyone else. Social media these days are just bragging platforms.

Oh, you went out to eat? Better check yourself into that place on Facebook, take that Snapchat of the fancy restaurant, and post a perfect picture of your food on Instagram. You went shopping? Better take a picture of everything you bought and add it to all your social media to let people know you bought new stuff. Pay day? You bet that paycheck was all over Snapchat.

We, me included, have become so blind to what we are actually doing. The bragging isn’t something we even think about, it just becomes a habit. Everything we do has to be documented all over social media. We want others to hold us to a certain standard over social media that may not be real in real life. We want to buy the best and newest things just so that we can let social media know we have it and so on. I mean it even comes down to the food we eat. We eat the best food just so that we can Snapchat it so others know what we are eating.

We may not be calling it bragging anymore, but that’s exactly what we are doing. It’s not about us anymore, it’s about what we have.

Social media has spread like wildfire and is showing no sign of slowing down. Take me back to the MySpace days anytime, when things were a little more simple.

 

 

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Meowbox 🐱

You spend all day everyday tracking that shipping number until that package arrives at your front door. You feel the excitement of opening the door and diving into your package. There is no greater feeling then getting a new fresh package in the mail.

If your a human and are anything like me, then you most likely share those same feelings. BUT, what about our non human friends? Shouldn’t they be able to share those same experiences as we do? Well, now they can!

Thanks to my favorite YouTuber, Casey Holmes, I have learned all about the Bark Box. This is a monthly subscription of treats and toys for your DOG! It was such a great feeling watching her dogs, Daisy and Rose, receive their boxes every month filled with all types of good stuff! Now, I don’t have a dog anymore (RIP Winter ❤🐶), but I do have a cat.

One day I decided to look up “bark box for cats” and I surprisingly came across the Meow Box. Now, the bark and the meow box are NOT affiliated, but they are just about the same thing. I didn’t even have to think about it, I signed my cat, Bella, up for a monthly  subscription quicker then I could even pull out my credit card.

It was a very easy process. I filled out both my and my cats information and then decided what type of subscription I wanted for her. You could do the monthly subscription or the every other month one. No matter what one you pick, you still get 4-6 items in each box as well as free shipping. Now, the plans do automatically renew, but you can cancel anytime and I believe you can even skip months if you wanted to. Similar to those shoedazzle and just fab and all those other types of human monthly subscriptions.

My cat is spoiled, so I picked the monthly one. It’s $22 a month, but I did google discount codes and ended up finding a 10% off code for my first month, so I ended up paying about $20.

Aside from the fact that my cat is going to be  receiving some great toys and healthy, organic treats, you will also be helping to feed other cats.

They have more information on their website, but they say that “for every meowbox you buy, we give a can of food (or monetary equivalent) to a shelter cat on your behalf”. How cool is that! On top of that they also give you a code so you can see where you helped out at!

My cat got her first meow box in today. Everything in it was so nicely put together and there are defiantly high-quality toys and treats. Now, it’s only our first box so far, but as of right now if you love your cat at much as I love mine, I would definitely recommend signing up!